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Okay so first of all, if progress is a bunch of shit happeneing that you weren't really ready for and then all turning to shit, then yes,
I've made a lot of progress. I've made a lot of mistakes, so that trusting you was a mistake that got smaller as I watched my fucking morals fall apart.
Secondly, I can fucking flip flop all my crazy fucking brain wants, as much as it sucks I still god damn care about you.
I just have absolutely no idea how to navigate that, which is, I guess, why we're having this passive aggressive conversation. I thought it would help you to stop talking to me. I want to be your friend again.
And none of this makes any sense and I cana't find anything that feels like home anymore and I feel like its all been downhill
I don't know how to fix this but that was the fucking issue in the first place
AND HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ANYTHING
ITS LIKE SCREAMING INTO A FUCKING VOID
I could only stand so much of your god damn pessimism and self pity that you wouldn't fucking get out from under even when I tried to heave you out from under it.
Why the fuck are you mad at me
Wanna talk to  me, fucking text me or call me whats up babe

Also, the point of a second tumblr is that no one knows about it.
Its where I go to figure my shit out, like how you always just went into your head, difference is you never came back out and shared anything like I did.
But that better not be what I think it is
Or else I am
So fucked 
It feels like alot of sharp edges
These days
If I think about any one thing too much it starts to ache and cringe in the same way
My dry, crusty new piercing does.

I wish I could push
Secretly
Through all the shit
All this stupid pointless nonsense
And hold you together

In the most erratic, selfish, stupid way,
So you know you can do it
So you know you can be alright by yourself

But I guess that would defeat the purpose

As angry as I was as sharp as all these edges
Anytime I get the poor idea to look
It kills me

But how the fuck could I help anyone anyway
I can barely keep myself from falling apart
Hell, even the mona lisa is.

I wish it all went differently.
These days it feels like the parts in sad movies before it gets good
Where everything aches
These days the sharp edges
I can't even tell what they're from anymore.

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Makala Maclagan
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: Denver, Colorado
Favorite genre of music: Alternative, Industrial, Indie, Rock, Electronica, Pretty Much all of it.
Favorite style of art: Abstract- but conceptual, not geometric crap.
Operating System: Chaos.
MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Shell of choice: Sea?
Wallpaper of choice: Favorites on Deviant
Skin of choice: Mine. Just kidding, I hate my skin.
Favorite cartoon character: Crysta from Fern Gully
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Jaggedharmony Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank youse ^u^
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AnkaaaaPORR Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist
Check out my gallery!
I draw aaand  take photos. :'D
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Thank you for the :+fav:! :)
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Thank you for the fav :hug:
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Happy birthday! :hug:
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Jaggedharmony Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh hey thanks :D
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john-william Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013   Writer
You're welcome :)
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave on my sketch!
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Jaggedharmony Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sure ^^
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